I seem to have misplaced my MOJO

So, I don't know what the deal is, but I seem to have misplaced my MOJO somewhere. Anymore, I'm doing good to get out of the house once a week to go grocery shopping or put gas in the car. I don't take the kids to the park, or out to play. I'm doing a cursery job at best on the house cleaning. I mean, it's picked up and vacuumed all the time, but the dusting...not so much. Bathrooms, not every week. Floor mopping, not like I should. I don't know why either, because I can honestly say I'm not sitting around on my ever growing arse and watching TV or blogging all day. In fact, there are some days that I literally do not sit down once between getting up with the kids at 6:30 and their nap time at 2:00. I always seem to be doing "something" but WHAT is it? Why is it that last year at this time I seemed to be doing so much more. We went to the park, we went shopping, we got pictures taken, I blogged more,and that was all with a newborn? I'm perplexed here. I have actually gone a day without showering, or getting dressed. Now, for some of you, this might be normal. But for moi, NEVER in my history have I done that. I ALWAYS shower and get ready, even if I never leave the house...until recently that is. I go to the store with no make up and in PJ's even. I'm beginning to worry about myself here. WHAT is happening? Where oh where has my gumption gone?





As I ponder on it, I think the most important difference is this....last year I was beginning my training for the triatholon. I was up every morning at 5:30 and exercising. I was showered and ready usually by 8:00 a.m. These days, I haven't worked out in weeks, I get up with the kids between 6:30 and 7:00 and putter around, cleaning, checking blogs, feeding them breakfast until around 9:00. Only when Max naps do I head for the shower. So, my day is shot, because by the time I'm ready, he wakes up and it's nearl lunch time. Make lunch, feed them, then it's time to take Brooklyn to school, or run to a store andthen it's nap time again. Bottom line, I MISS WORKING OUT! I've learned that I am a person that MUST have a structured environment to do it in. I NEED a gym, I NEED machines and classes and people. I feel so gross,and at least while I was working out regularly, I could eat a dozen cookies and not gain weight (tragically, only a slight exageration). Not so much now. I MISS Dixie working out with me everyday on our Tri schedule. I miss the weekly challenges of our Tri group. It was fun, it was something to work towards. And I just miss feeling good. Who knew that I would ever be one to miss exercising, but I do. I don't know how, but I MUST figure out a way to go back to a gym and get on a schedule once again. I think my sanity, as well as my butt is counting on it. And then perhaps, my blogging will improve as well. In case you don't believe me, I offer up THIShttp://www.jereandallyson.blogspot.com/2009/1/my-physical-odessy.html THIS http://www.jereandallyson.blogspot.com/2009/01/single-hair.html THIS: http://www.jereandallyson.blogspot.com/2009/03/accomplishedat-price.html and THIS: http://www.jereandallyson.blogspot/2009/04/i-am.htmlas proof that I was funnier AND more effectively using my time a year ago. (highly recommended reading for any newcomers this year, but fun for old timers as well).




Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to bed, where perhaps I'll be able to find some kind of MOJO, and then I'll ponder the merits of exercise some more!





Heavy Hips and bubble butts,


Allyson